It's OK to not be OK

Unless I missed it, the song “Everything Is Awesome” from the LEGO movie is no where to be found in scripture. In fact, look at the Psalms and you will read the songs and prayers of a man who knew suffering. King David knew what it was to be misunderstood, betrayed, and left mentally exhausted. And yet, most of the time, put a Christian in a painful situation, and nine times out of ten they will slap a smile on their face and recite a ridiculous number of platitudes. “I’m too blessed to be stressed” or “God’s got me. I’ll be OK” to name but a few.

Funny thing is, nowhere in the bible do we see people speaking in such clichés. Jesus Himself demonstrated that when people were hurting, He hurt too. When Lazarus had died, He didn’t walk in and say, “Hey guys! I’m here. Put a smile on your face and be grateful. I’m about to do something awesome!” No. He talked with Martha and Mary. He heard their hearts. He wept. He felt the pain of those He loved and He grieved (John 11:35).

This has been a hard week. And whilst I seek to encourage people, I have to be honest. The trenches of life, motherhood, and everything in between have been overwhelming. We all have bad days. Sometimes there are bad weeks, months, and even years and it feels like a struggle to stay positive. There are times in our lives when we feel like we are fighting one bad situation after another. And if you are like me, we feel guilty that we are feeling sad, because as a Christian, we should be joyful at all times, right?

But in John 11, Jesus showed us that He prioritized a person’s heart over a result. Before He performed the miracle of raising Lazarus from the dead, He felt with, grieved with, and comforted those in pain.  In another passage of scripture, Jesus also said, “Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.” (Matthew 5:4). How can you be comforted if you don’t mourn? How can you experience the true impact of the comfort of the Holy Spirit whilst you are masking your pain?

The western Church has become so very fixated with results. Some churches want results seen in healing miracles. Other churches want results in numbers of converts and church growth. And whilst it’s easy to criticize church leaders for thinking about the numbers, we all live our lives looking for results. We have specific ‘results’ that we are asking God for and we ask for them everyday. Have my prayers been answered yet? Do I have the promotion that I have been asking God for? Has that family drama been resolved? Do I have the money to buy a new car? Why am I not married yet? Is the doctor going to call me and tell me that I am healed? Please God, let me go full-term and not miscarry another baby.

And whilst praying for these things is a good thing, becoming fixated on the ‘result’ can be so destructive to our hearts. When circumstances don’t change in accordance with our timeline, disappointment and resentment seeps into our hearts. Before we know it, we are mad at God for forgetting about us but we are simultaneously trying to keep a smile on our faces. 

But like we saw with Lazarus, He walked up to Mary and Martha and loved them BEFORE He gave them a ‘result’. He mourned with them, cried with them, and let them know that He was present. 

So today, whatever you are dealing with, whatever result you are not seeing, whatever grief is gripping your heart, put down the mask and let your heart be seen. Know that your God loves you more than your circumstance. As scripture shows, your pain matters. It’s OK to be in pain. It’s not a sin to grieve. But before He performs a miracle, maybe He wants to come close and comfort you? Maybe He wants to grieve with you and let you know that He is with you? 

It’s OK to not be OK, just keep your heart open to God and let Him come close to you.

The Weight In The Wait

There’s an epidemic sweeping across the homes of America. As I spend my time talking with people, there are many who struggle with the same issue. 

Invisibility. Many of us feel unseen. Many of us feel like we are consumed in the grind of the day, whether it’s raising little kids, building a career, or caring for elderly family. We are caught in an avalanche of tasks, paying bills, and satisfying needy people, and it seems like “self-care” is a million miles away. 

And social media only tells us how much other people have got their stuff together, how friends are killing their career goals, and how others are spending cash that can only be sourced from some secret benefactor. Seriously. We look at others and it’s too easy to slip down a spiral of self-criticism, comparison, and even regret. We start to second-guess the choices we have made and we wonder why we are so tired, so drained, and so depleted. And it feels like no one else notices. Or at least, you are the lone sailor on the ship of obscurity. 

In the midst of it all, God has something to say to our loneliness and exhaustion. He doesn’t say we have missed it. He doesn’t say we should regret the choices we have made. In fact He promises to make all things beautiful (Ecclesiastes 3:11). God doesn’t say that we are not enough; He says we have everything we need for everyday life and spirituality (2 Peter 1:3). He says He sees us, He knows us, and He values us (Psalm 139). 

But it doesn't feel like that. We feel forgotten. We feel far away from our dreams. We feel stuck in a life full of responsibilities and wonder if we will ever see our prayers answered. 

Like most of America, I have been enthralled by the rise of Michael Ketterer. If you have not heard of him, he’s a worship leader with United Pursuit who recently tried out for America’s Got Talent. He’s struck gold and the video of his audition has been viewed over 12 million times on YouTube (if you’ve not seen it, give it a quick Google). We all know worship leaders who have longed, or are still longing to be “discovered”. They know they have skills and abilities and yet they feel unseen to the rest of the world. But Michael Ketterer didn’t just sit and wait to be discovered. He worked faithfully as a Pediatric nurse. He served kids in his city and provided for his family. He adopted 5 children from the foster care system. He got on with the day-to-day of life and loved his family well. 

And when Michael walked on that America’s Got Talent stage to share his song and his story, America listened. There was weight. As Simon Cowell said, there was something special about him.

Look at Candace Payne, the Chewbacca-Mask Mom. As a young twenty-something, she was building a career as a comedian. But she realized her jokes were cynical about the church. She knew that if she continued to walk down the comedy path, she wasn’t going to give glory to God, but in fact dishonor Him. So she gave it up. Then she married and had kids, and they became her world. She led worship in her church. She was not working towards a book deal or a predominant career. Then one day, she took some things back to Kohl’s and picked up a Chewbacca mask in the clearance section. With excitement, she ran back to her car and made a quick Facebook Live video showing off the mask. Her video was so popular, that the unknown housewife broke Facebook! Within a week, her Chewbacca mask video had been viewed 140 million times, making it most viewed Facebook Live video of all time. Candace now has a flourishing career as an author and comedian. She has book deals, live tours, and an insane number of followers on social media. 

Neither of these people were on a track for fame or success. They were loving and serving the people right in front of them. They were working hard to provide. They were giving to people. And when the time was right, they were propelled towards their dreams.

Contrary to what we hear in our dog-eat-dog world, WEIGHT is given in the WAIT.  

Many of us have been given gifts and anointings from heaven. Some are musicians, some are business leaders, some are Christian leaders. But we can get disheartened as the minutia of life overwhelms us. Your kids need their diapers changed. Your boss has brought your deadline forward. An elderly neighbor needs help with some errands. 

And the dreams that once sparked inside our hearts seem to fizzle out. 

King David was anointed king but it took another twenty years for him to be appointed king. And during those years, he was being fashioned into a person of compassion, humility, and emotional freedom. He had his flaws, but he was a king who went down in history as being a man after God’s own heart (Acts 13:22). 

But there have been too many servants of God who have been crushed by their anointings. We know who they are. We read the headlines and see their falls from grace. Like King Saul, David’s predecessor, their own insecurities triumphed over their anointings. Some embezzled money, some abused, whilst others slept around. Their gifts crushed them.

But in the wait, as your weight grows, you will not be crushed by your anointing. Instead, your anointing will serve you as you are appointed. Your spirit, soul, and body will work in synergy rather than in opposition to one another.

So today, know you are seen. Know you are loved. Know you are heard. Know that God wants you to thrive and not be crushed. Know that your wait is giving space for weight.

  

 

The Unexpected Direction (Promises Part 3)

I’m sure I’m not alone if I say I often feel like I am walking along the road less travelled. And sometimes the hardest thing to do is to let go of the plan I have set out for my life and allow God to navigate me. When I see what I think is the quickest way to get to my promises, surrendering to Him is the last thing I want to do. 

We all get tired of the wait. We all get frustrated, exhausted, and disappointed. We want results and we want them right now!

But what if God is leading us on a safer road? Rather than exposing us to disaster, what if this road protects us from attack or intimidation? What if God knows the things that will terrify us and He wants to shelter us? What if this crazy long path we are currently treading is actually the most successful road to our dreams?

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